Hopeless Romantic.

I've seen you before
A thousand times
Standing across from me
In that dimensionless room
in my mind.

I've seen you before
A thousand times
In the seems of my dreams
As I burst with my screams
of excitement
It's you, and I'm here
until you disappear, as I wake

I've seen you before
A thousand times
In my premonitions of finally
In my pleasant hallucinations
My mental oasis
The distorted reality of you
Being next to me
Holding me
Enveloping
Everything
until I couldn't find much of me
in all of you
I was submersed
Plunged into all of that oneness
 But still there was the distinction: the you
And an unfamiliar newness
that belonged to me
for the most part.

I've seen you before
A thousand times
In the irises of my eyes
In the verses of the Bible
the verses about love
about leaders
about patience
In the lyrics of the love songs
In Psalms
the lyrics of my heart beat

I've seen you before
A thousand times
which is why I get so upset when I confuse you
with everything that's not you
the myriad of carbon copies
the mannequins
the puzzle pieces that can't fit
I recognize the untruths
but I'm feening
for the feeling
That is you
So I submit to the phony
It seems to be the only
The only way to taste something concrete
But it's not sweet
The bland,
carnally altered
artificiality
that I hopelessly wished to be you knowing that it wasn't
is tasteless
but I still attempt to
enhance it with my
imagination
"It's infatuation"
But it's hopeless
So I'm back to the drawing board
It sounds ridiculous
since I'm blind
but boy I've seen you before
... in my mind.

And now I'm forced to tranquilize this anxiety
and wait for you to find me
Because I can feel the you that's inside me
But beside me
I see no one.
Behind me
I see no one.
Well, a bunch of cold someones that just aren't
you

Aren't you
wondering where I am?
I can't imagine that you too are blind also
God's not cynical, so you must be lost
so I pray you find your way

I've seen you before
A thousand times
Plus a thousand more
And the tenacity of my memory won't let me forget
So I'll dance with you
In that dimensionless room of my mind
as I hopelessly wait for my dreams to come true
In that dimensionless room known as time.